I’m Selfish

This is a sad truth of mine, that I was not willing to admit to myself for such a long time.

My problem is the fact that I worry about what the future brings and how it will affect me…. when I know that God’s word says don’t worry about yourself and simply focus your attention on Thee.

I fail to do this often, and in return, I get the same result. When I ask God to help me overcome my selfishness He gives me a halt.

Why should He help me when I continue to worry about myself? He did, in fact say to worry ONLY about everyone else.

This is not having faith in Him when I worry like this. It is actually me being selfish and living without bliss.

I do know better, and I should have more faith in Him by now, but admitting this fault to myself gives me hope somehow.

Now, I need to take the right steps going forward so that I can live more like He wants me to; a life of service instead of greed is what I actually need. I need to pray, spend more time helping others, and less time in pity parties, gossiping, and foreboding. Having faith and living His way will lead me to a life with more happiness and less selfishness.

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1 Peter 2:23 New King James Version helped me write this message today.

23 who, when He was reviled, did not revile in return; when He suffered, He did not threaten, but committed Himself to Him who judges righteously.

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I hope that you are having a great weekend and I hope that you have a great upcoming week.

Christy 🙂

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38 thoughts on “I’m Selfish

  1. thoughtsnlifeblog says:

    Faith the Divine and faith in yourself. Trust that you can handle it all and that he is by yourside. Face all your fears and one day one the worry will reduce considerably and eventually stop. Ps it is not selfishness, it is jyat a bad habit and will disappear in time as you face your fears and develop faith in yourseld and trust god is with you.

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  2. Mark Lanesbury says:

    You cannot give from an empty cup kind lady. And we only give out what we are. We have all those emotions…sadness so that we can understand and appreciate happiness, fear so that we can understand and appreciate love etc.
    All of these ‘conditions’ in this world are there so that we can understand them, changing what and who we are to become the unconditional that He is. He is inside us all, you cannot deny yourself without denying Him. You must give to yourself and become that love and happiness, then that is what you will give to others.
    Receiving is one of the hardest things to do because of what we believe about ourselves, that negativity we absorb through childhood turning into our fears. Fears make us live a lie, wear masks to hide those things we don’t like and avoid at all costs. We even create emotional walls so that we don’t get hurt from those fears, but in doing so we block the one thing that we think we don’t deserve…our love, that self love that we have denied ourselves forever. Once we truly understand the ‘why’ we have those fears, they lose their power over us. He wants us to be like Him and those fears are the only thing blocking us. Yes they are a hard journey, and a lifetimes worth, but it is like all those other emotions, once you go through those trials of understanding them you will appreciate them all the more because of what you have endured. And that is not being selfish, in fact it is the one thing He wants you to be, from there all else will flow and a freedom in your heart like nothing else.
    Unconditional literally means ‘no conditions’, and in understanding those fears you remove them and no longer have those ‘conditions’ holding you back, nor the ‘conditional’ love that you give yourself. We have much judgement and expectations of ourselves and others while ever we hold onto those fears. They affect us in everything we do.
    Remove them by understand them and you are free from it all. He will be cheering from the sidelines in everything that you do, even the mistakes give great learning. Remember, He is unconditional, He won’t be pointing the finger at you for anything because He knows each step is a winner, each smile is a little more glow of love in your heart…then you can truly give from a full cup.
    Be gentle on yourself, there is a lifetime to do all of this. Slow down your journey so that you can really be in a good place within, from there you will ‘see’ life truly instead of the busy, busy of life blinding you to where your heart is. We are always trying to find our happiness ‘out there’, not realising it is inside of us, healing those parts that hold us back.
    That was the one thing I found, I really wanted my life to have some meaning, but instead of grabbing it all the more, I let it go…and then He knew I was ready ❤

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    • CHRISTY ISTRATE says:

      Thank you for your amazing reply, I learned plenty from this. God is amazing! I have always known that He loves us no matter what and He wants us to love ourselves and others just the same. You are right… accepting out feelings is a start to moving more into a self love that is more capable of loving others more. Thank you and God bless you! 🙏

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  3. Equipping says:

    Proverbs 27:16-18 New American Standard Bible (NASB)
    16 He who would restrain her restrains the wind,
    And grasps oil with his right hand.
    17 Iron sharpens iron,
    So one man sharpens another.
    18 He who tends the fig tree will eat its fruit,
    And he who cares for his master will be honored.

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