Today I saw a glimpse of my “old life” while perusing Facebook. At first, I began “liking” the photos that I saw from my old friends, but then I couldn’t help but feel a sense of jealousy shortly afterwards.
Now that I am no longer a part of my past, I cannot help but to “miss what once was” sometimes. Isn’t that human? But… jealousy? Really?
Luckily, after viewing and envying what I no longer had, my daughter came into the room and broke my pointless concentration. She wanted to build Legos and I graciously obliged. I am so glad that I did because it was at this moment that I reminded myself of what was more important in life; being present in my daughter’s life is worth more to me than any shindig a job can offer. Not all moms are created equal so I am truly happy for those who can enjoy the perks and the famous “work/life balance” offerings of many jobs today.
Being that I do try to lead a happy life overall, this feeling of jealousy did not settle well with me. I immediately felt guilty for my thoughts so I prayed and then watched some videos. I am grateful that I stumbled upon this one:
I do admit, this year I have backed off from Facebook, but days like this make me wander if I would be better off without it? This video brings clarity to a topic that many of us do not wish to discuss. I am not using this post to suggest dropping social media, I simply wish to confront the feelings which accompany the skewed vision of others’ lives.
The following versus from the King James Version of the Bible have been helpful to me with this issue.
James 3:16 – For where envying and strife [is], there [is] confusion and every evil work.
Romans 12:2 – And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
Galatians 5:21 – Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told [you] in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.
My goal is to be a good christian so that I can show God’s love to others. With these feelings I am not only hurting myself, I am also killing my chances to whiteness and live the life that God has planned for me to live.
Today I want to let you know that God loves you just the way you are. He created us all to be unique so that we could enjoy each others differences.
Being envious is our way of showing God that we are NOT thankful for the blessings that he has given us.
I do hope that this message helps you like it did me. Stepping away from feelings of envy is a great start to living our lives the way God intended.