This was me. A General Manager for the Olive Garden. I had my name on the wall… in stone. I had a big smile on my face and I was happy… until… I couldn’t sleep, eat, and manage my stress enough to keep up with the heavy rock on the wall. I demoted myself back to being the manager, which I had plenty of experience doing, and found peace once again.
Why am I telling you all this? Why share this story after I have moved to a country that doesn’t even have Olive Gardens?
I want to share with you my learnings from this experience:
- God is my rock and He always has been.
- When I try to do things that aren’t a part of His plan I feel that the rock I am holding is too heavy to carry. Sometimes it is His will, and He helps me carry the heavy rock, while other times He says to drop my rock and move on.
Psalm 18:2-6 King James Version
2 The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.
After leaving the States I had some major adjustments to make, and I am still making them. At times I found (and still find) myself losing positivity and kindness so I pray immediately when I slip in these areas. God always finds a way to help me snap out of my rut by showing me a devotional reading, a blog post, or a message from a friend.
What I try to focus on now is different than in years past…
- I no longer focus on whether or not my uniform is looking just right.
- I no longer worry about whether or not I am pleasing everyone.
- I no longer try to be available for everyone and everything.
- I no longer try to keep that fancy rock (with my name engraved on it) up on the wall for others to see.
NOW… I try to keep my focus on what is more pleasing to God.
- I praise you, God… both publicly and privately.
- I focus more on what I can do to help others rather than what I can do to impress them.
- My daughter loves God, and I am teaching her how to develop a closer relationship with Him.
- I am honest now, and I still pray for forgiveness for my past.
I am still a work in process… we all are! God is not finished with any of us yet! He is still developing us, making a pearl out of us, so that we can shine in front of others and help them learn too… so that we can help them learn more about Him and His love.
I pray that you all had an amazing weekend and that your week ahead is great also.